2011 Mixtape

Here's a list of songs that absolutely touched my life in 2011:

Aftermath - Hillsong

All My Fountains - Chris Tomlin

All To Us - Chris Tomlin

Always - Kristian Stanfill

As Long As It Takes - Meredith Andrews

Beautiful Exchange - Hillsong

Beautiful Things - Gungor

Broken Bread - Rend Collective Experiment

By Our Love - Christy Nockels

C.S. Lewis Song - Brooke Fraser

Carbon Ribs - John Mark McMillan

Carry Your Name - Christy Nockels

Dearly Loved - Jimmy Needham

Deeper in Love - Charlie Hall

Dress Us Up - John Mark McMillan

Everything - Tim Hughes

Falling - The Civil Wars

Farther Than We Can Fall - Daniel Doss Band

Forever Reign - Kristian Stanfill

Getting Into You - Relient K

Give Me Faith - Elevation Worship

Giving Up - Ingrid Michaelson

Heaven Song - Phil Wickham

Here for You - Chris Tomlin

Holy - Matt Redman

How He Loves - Kim Walker

I Will Follow - Chris Tomlin

Lead Me - Sanctus Real

Let Me Feel You Shine - David Crowder Band

Let the Waters Rise - MIKESCHAIR

Lord, I Need You - Chris Tomlin

Love That - Grace Midtown

Made for You - Matt Gilman

Magnificent Obsession - Steven Curtis Chapman

Micah 6:8 - Charlie Hall
Movements - Rend Collective Experiment

My Brightness - Charlie Hall

My Master - Christy Nockels

New Beginnings - Luminate

Only You - David Crowder Band

Our God - Chris Tomlin

Poison & Wine - Civil Wars

Restless - Audrey Assad

Roll Away Your Stone - Mumford & Sons
Send Your Rain - Passion Band

Shadows - David Crowder Band

So Good To Me - Cory Asbury

Sometimes - David Crowder Band
Sparrow - Audrey Assad

Stained Glass Windows - Daniel Doss Band

Stronger - Hillsong
Summer of '89 - Butch Walker

Symphony - Chris Tomlin

Take Heart - Hillsong

The More I Seek You - Kari Jobe

The Reason I Sing - Jimmy Needham

Times - Tenth Avenue North

Waiting Here for You - Christy Nockels
You Are Love - Rend Collective Experiment

You Said - Hillsong

Your Love Never Fails - Chris McClarney

Shane & Phil

I couldn't not post this.

It. is. so. good.

Top Ten

Just a glimpse at the top 10 most-viewed blog posts here in 2010.

10. New Song A song I found in August that completely blew my worries out of the water. You should definitely add this one to your collection.

9. Elizabeth Barrett Browning One of my favorite poem finds of the year. It's old, but so worth it.

8. frustration word vomit My reaction to building tension in my life and life in general. Sometimes being outside the situation helps you see what needs to be fixed in your own life.

7. fairytales and cinderella Another of my "life analogies" on decisions & patience.

6. Your Faithful Love The final compilation of a pattern I noticed in scripture about God's love for us and what His love really looks like.

5. impossibilities A pretty transparent decision not to be angry mixed in with a decision to be uncomfortable for the name of Jesus, but not idolize "doing."

4. heaven in CD-R form Christmas, Thanksgiving, and paganism

3. everything looks different when i wake up A few brutally honest facts about me as I am now (some things have changed).

2. givepeoplethebird.com Happy 1st Birthday Connect Rome and my story about getting there.

1. Let me tell you what God did... A testimony...God allowing me to see His answer to a prayer. I witnessed the Healer in action. wild.

today's song of choice

almost like a weapon of choice - hah!!

I realized last night that I haven't listened to secular music at all since before leaving for break....and last night was the first time (besides listening to that BLG song in the car with Jules when the Jesus station went out).

BUT lately I have also been struggling a little - at night especially, but sometimes in the mornings. I've had weird dreams and slept soundly, but restlessly, and my spirit is just heavy some days. Two nights this week Satan has tried to tell me I'm doing the wrong thing...that I was standing on nothing for 20 years and I'm still standing on nothing...that there IS nothing to stand on - there is only sinking.
to that I say "if His grace is an ocean, we're all sinking." So, gladly, mister satan, will I sink in Adonai's grace!!

Anyway, this morning I decided to pull out the handy iPod while walking to class...since I pulled it out for a listen last night so as not to disturb my dear roommate with my loud obnoxious music (she actually tried talking to me and I didn't hear her - such a hilarious moment for us teehee).
Back to my story - this morning, one of the first songs that played was "Cling To The Call" by John Waller. Here are the lyrics::

I was walking on water just a week ago
Not a care in the world even a day ago
Not sure what happened but all of the sudden
I saw the crashing waves all around me
And once again I had to choose
To put my eyes back on You
My eyes back on You

And You said...
Cling to the call
Cling to the peace that guards your heart
Cling to the promise
Though you stumble you won't fall
I will uphold you now just trust me with all
Just look at me and I will lead you as you
Cling to the call

I could stand without wavering just an hour ago
I could not deny You even a moment ago
Not sure what happened but three times denied You
And once again I've gotta choose
To put my eyes back on You
My eyes back on You

Now once again
I trust You're leading me
I choose to lean not
On my understanding, Lord
And I will sing as I cling…

and this is John Waller's story behind said song according to
"The revelation in my songs has always preceded where I am in life. I wrote “Cling to the Call” while we were getting ready to move back to Georgia from Colorado. At the time, we didn’t know what we were going to do in Georgia, and didn’t even have a concrete place to live. Plus, we didn’t have the money to move across the country. But we knew we were called to do it, so all we could do was cling to Him. Some people think that clinging to the call means you are called to a specific task and you must cling to that thing. But the task changes. You may not be doing the same thing five years from now. Instead, we are called to cling to Him. We are called to know him." - John Waller


HOW THIS SPEAKS TO MY HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been so incredibly focused on the Lord lately - from the time I was home for break to Passion to the first week here, but even when I got back, I felt like I was so easily swayed from looking at Him!!!! Even this week! I will study and be in the word, then all of a sudden lose it. Satan loves to attack, but praise Adonai for His call!! His plan is infallible!

I'd write more, but it's time to leave work. :) PG!