sad sophomore eyes

I'm trying not to miss you
by busying myself
and thinking of something else
but all the while I'm wishing..
wishing you were here
to make this easier
and make me laugh
to grab the ranch
and be my constant friend

But times are changing
and I will not let these tears fall.
for now I will swallow my fears
and smile at what seems so unclear
until the time I see you again,
which I will cherish
like every fleeting memory of times passed,
when i will truly smile inside and out,
while praying that the end may never show its face.